I know I have disappeared from not only blogger, but from most of my friends in general. I have done so for many reasons. I have had many health issues of late to deal with. Problems that have brought me to a halt in most areas of my life. I have not wanted to talk about any of my health issues because it is all the same ole same ole issues. My way of dealing with the pain has been to disappear into a game online. The game has brought me a sense of being able to do things that I could not do for real. I know some do not understand. I do not think one really can unless you are dealing with chronic health issues.
Another way of dealing was just pretending all was fine in my life. I tend to do that when I am really really hurting. ignoring problems tend to come easy for me. Maybe it is because I have had problems all my life. If you do not focus on the problems then you do not have to deal. :) I have been doing just that.
I have been slowly feeling better. I feel like I am just now coming out of the fog, and seeing light again. Just in time too! We are moving into our house soon. I have to deal with packing and moving, and unpacking! I will try and keep everyone updated.
Thank you to those who have not given up on me. Thanks for still caring enough to pull up my blog and see if I posted anything.
This poem is for those of you who have not given up on me, and those of you who still come to my blog to read my thoughts. You know who you are!
God must have know there would be times we'd need a word of cheer,
Someone to praise a triumph or brush away a tear.
He must have known we'd need to share the joy of "little things"
In order to appreciate the happiness life brings.
I think He knew our troubled hearts would sometimes throb with pain,
At trials and misfortunes, or goals we can't attain.
He knew we'd need the comfort of an understanding heart
To give us strength and courage to make a fresh, new start.
He knew we'd need companionship, unselfish....lasting....true,
And so God answered the heart's great need with Cherished Friends....like you!!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Posted by Tracy at 9:26 PM
Friday, May 25, 2007
I posted this before in my old blog. It is worth posting again. I needed the reminder. :)
I am in the present - the now.
All is perfect, whole and balanced.
I will not believe in old limitations and lacks.
I will not judge, but accept and understand.
I will be as I was created to be perfect and whole.
Free of the past, it has no control, only to learn from it.
I open myself to the wisdom, that is part of that which created me,
and is part of me, and within me.
I move on the new - forward to release old patterns.
The more resentment I release, the more I can receive and give love.
I will love all as I wish to be loved.
I must see myself as an individual, unique and special.
All my experiences have formed the facets of the special jewel,
like no other, which is myself.
To see myself as Soul and this body only as a vehicle for this world.
For I am part of the creator and the energy, that I came from.
Every day I can be what I choose and think thoughts,
that will create what I choose.
I will allow all to be, what they choose.
I shall be balanced in all I do.
I will not be a victim of circumstances or others standards.
But the master of my destiny.
I will be whole.
I will achieve the greatness that
Posted by Tracy at 6:47 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
My Dear Child,
You know you are not of this world, you've been bought with a price.
Jesus paid your ransom. He cannot pay it twice.
The ultimate sacrifice was made that you might live.
He took your sin upon Himself; I've nothing more to give.
You are a very special child, one I really treasure..
Why do you turn away from me to follow worldly pleasure?
You once received my gift by faith. It turned your life around.
From darkness into light you walked; My welcome there you found.
I've called you to be a soldier. Like Paul, fight the good fight.
For you will only know My best, when you do what is right.
Don't look at other Christian's lives, and think, "they do it too".
Each one must answer for himself, and now I'm asking you.
My Spirit once shone from your eyes, before sin took it's toll.
When you still had your innocence, and My will was your goal.
Remember when you were so filled with joy from loving me?
Now you've found a counterfeit and lost your liberty.
Oh, foolish one, you've been deceived. What a man sows, he'll reap.
The one who listens to Satan, Satan will try to keep.
He comes as an angel of light enticing those who are weak.
Promising love and life and wealth; whatever it is you seek.
I set you free from bondage once. I'll set you free again.
But, choose My way; faith doesn't work for double minded men.
Don't let the devil claim your soul, your spirit or your mind.
Resist him, he will flee from you. My power you will find.
I've given you authority and power over sin.
The devil is your enemy; but, I want you to win.
I called you out of darkness; brought you to the light;
With My Holy Spirit you may walk by faith, not sight.
You were fashioned to be mine. Even before your birth,
I planned a life of service for you to live on earth.
You are my chosen vessel. Why will you live in shame?
Use the power I have given you. That power's in Jesus name.
With utmost love,
Your Heavenly Father
Posted by Tracy at 8:49 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Latest pictures of house building.
Here are some of the latest pictures taken of our house. My husband has worked very hard making a beautiful home for us. He installed the plumbing, electrical and has been painting and putting wood up on our ceiling in our great room. He also has started installing kitchen cabinets. Its coming along beautifully. I am thrilled!
Take special notice of the doorways. He made them to match the great room window! He also has hand built the front porch railings! Very detailed work I might add. :)
Posted by Tracy at 10:09 AM
Monday, May 14, 2007
I know I have not done much writing of late. I have thought many times I should just write what is happening in my life. Words just do not seem to be coming to me of late.
I do not want the only thing written in my blog to be negative. All who read my blog know already about my health issues, and many of you already know about my emotional ones. They are the same. Never ending. So instead of repeating myself over and over I have just decided not to write.
I have thought about just ending my blog. I have not done so because I am hoping that I will just wake one day, and things will be much better regarding my health and emotional issues.
I know I am blessed. I know that there are people in this world with problems much greater then mine. It makes me feel guilty to write about my problems when things could be much worse. This is why you have not heard from me.
Thank you to those who have not given up on me, and who still come to my blog hoping to know how I am. This post is for you.
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.
Posted by Tracy at 7:19 AM