This week a theme is emerging. One that I would like to share here on my blog. The theme has been "longing". A longing to find purpose, a longing to find hope, and a longing to find something missing in a persons life. From personal experience's that longing we all are searching for is "love" I think it all comes down to that very thing. Purpose, hope, yearning all comes down to a need to be loved.

Every time I turned around this week whether it be through a friend, a family member, a stranger, or even through myself, longing has been something we are all craving. I think we are born with longing. From the first breath we take we long for something. Our mothers arms, to be fed, to be loved. For that matter we long within the womb to be born. So we long from the first moment of conception.

I feel God has been with me from the very time of my conception. I have at times felt alone, and not felt his presence. Those are the times I have wondered "why I had to go through so many different hardships through my life time, and asked myself why did i not feel God then with me". Why could I not hear him?

I have been on a journey my entire life to find the desires of my heart. What most people who are on this same journey forget is that one needs to be walking that journey not alone but with God.

When in prayer this morning I prayed that the Lord would show me exactly what he wanted me to see. Once again he answered. It always amazes me that he actually hears me. I feel humbled each time because i am no one special living amoung many who have done greater things then I that is for sure. Yet he hears me and answers me. Normally through the word he does this, or through another study plan i am doing. Sometimes though he just quietly talks to me telling me that I am never alone.

Today a few things were shown to me. The book Romans in my bible came to my mind. Before I share this with you all I would like you to know something. And that is that I am just now finding my way to reading the bible fully. I have never read the bible enough in my life time to know verses from heart, or to even for that matter tell you this topic is in this book or chapter, or that topic is in that book and chapter. This is one reason I am amazed when God guides me to a certain part of the bible that discusses exactly what I have been praying on.

In Romans Chapter 8 It talks about the spirit. The whole chapter spoke to me and a few of the verses yelled to me. :) I highly recommend anyone who is feeling that they are longing for something to read this book in the bible.



There are times in the lives of all God's children when we are called on to suffer. In Romans 5:3-4 that "suffering produces perseverance; perseverance produces character; character brings us hope." While believers are sustained in their suffering by hope, we also are sustained in our weakness in the most special way of all:

The Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. (Romans 8:26-27)


God himself, who dwells within us in the person of the Holy Spirit, intercedes for us in our weakness. "The Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words can not express." He answers those longings even when we do not have the words, and feel a loss of exactly what we are longing for or needing.

God gave us those desires of our heart in order to draw us close to Him; we were created to be in an eternally secure love relationship with God.

Many may think, I really don't want these deep longings. I'm angry that I have the desire to be loved. Life would be so much simpler if I just didn't feel that way. However I know through my readings that the desire to belong is part of us, part of our soul. It is not something to push away but to allow the Spirit of God to draw closer with in each of us. To allow him to full fill those longings of the heart. To allow him the relationship we were always meant to have. A relationship with him.