I have had no real words to express lately. Life is moving forward even though I am unsure which direction it is moving.
My husband lost his job along with more then 30 other employees in his company because of company politics! No good reasons were given, just a game being played, and impacting so many families. We all are in shock truthfully that such silliness can happen. It did however, and now we are having to deal.
It happened fast and our heads are still spinning. It is a long story and too complicated truthfully to explain. We are now trying to figure out what we should now do. There are a lot of options being put in front of us, but none are really clear paths. It is a time of waiting, and being patient. (the patient part is hard for me.) I guess though that life is never easy, if it were we would never appreciate all the blessings that happen each and every day.
We would like to stay put, and not move for several reasons. We would like to see our sons finish high school with out another move. We would also like to stay in the house that we have built. We have been in the home such a short time, a little over a year. We are still working on areas in the house that are undone. I also have a couple of really close friends that would be deeply missed.
Hopefully we will be able to stay and not move. Only time will tell I guess.
On a bright note, one thing that has happened during this time of uncertainty, is my twin and her husband came for a visit. What a blessing that was! We had a wonderful time together, and it was a nice break from all the unknown.
My twin and I had such a good time catching up and just being together that i feel lost now that she is gone. We also were pleasantly surprised that our husbands who met for the first time hit it off, and had a great time visiting also! That was a huge blessing, and such a gift. I enjoyed visiting with them so much i did not want them to leave. :) I miss my twin already.
I am leaving on Monday to visit family in Iowa. My Aunt has been very sick, she has had several strokes and I want to give her a hug. I think i really need to be with family right now. Maybe it will help calm me. I will be gone a little over a week. Hopefully when I return my husband and I will have a clearer picture of what our future holds.
I would like to thank all of you for your wonderful support, and for your encouraging words. I am blessed that so many people in blogger land care, and have me in their prayers.
*** This week i have tried visiting my friends in blogger land, and for some reason blogger has not been working. I try to post and sometimes it works, and other times it wont! Please know that I will try and catch up again with all of you when I return from Iowa.***
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Posted by Tracy at 8:50 PM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Happy moments, PRAISE GOD. Difficult moments, SEEK GOD. Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD. Painful moments, TRUST GOD. Every moment, THANK GOD.
My family and I are going through some tough times right now, and things are not going to get any easier in the near future I think. Amazingly enough while sitting here worrying and wondering what the future holds for me and my family, I was reminded that when walking down an unknown path that is dark and has lots of twists and turns, if you brighten that path with a little light one can see all that stands in ones way, and go a lot further down that very path.
Faith, and prayer is so very important during each trial a person might face in life. So I am going to hold out my hand and grab onto Jesus, and let him light and guide the way. He already knows where we are heading. All I need to do is trust in him to get us there safely.
My prayer for tonight as I head off to bed is a verse I saw just moments ago.
" Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ says the LORD of hosts." Therefore " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Zechariah 4:6, Philippians 4:13
So by the Spirit of Christ I shall allow him to strengthen me, and I shall stop worrying so much about situations I have no control over.
Thank you Jesus for your love that you have always shown me, for your insight when i can not see, and your strength when I am feeling powerless. Amen
Posted by Tracy at 11:26 PM