Friday, May 30, 2008

Summer Nights : Painting done by Tracy Jo
May 30th, 2008

Looks like I am on a roll. Painting has taken over my life. Grinning. This painting I did this morning. I think I am going to name this Painting Summer Nights.

Once again i am always looking for input. I love hearing feed back from others. That is how one grows as a painter. How does the painting make you feel? Does it invoke any special thoughts or feelings in you?


Thursday, May 29, 2008

Painting done by: Tracy Jo May 29th, 2008

I spent the morning painting again. I am just now coming up for air. I am calling this painting Ray of Hope. There is always hope when darkness arrives if one only looks to the light.

Please share your opinions, and thoughts with me regarding this painting. Does the painting evoke any emotion with in you? If so what emotions?

I hope you all have a blessed day!

*** What I was feeling and trying to express while working on this painting.

If you look up at the right hand side of the painting, you will see the sun. The sun represents the "son Jesus"

The trees represent the feeling of hardship, loneliness, coldness, and troubles in ones life. If you notice all the trees are bent and curvy. Bent from the hardships in life. They are twisting, yet needing to reach high, so they grow upwards in spite of all the twists and curves. They look like the growing in life was hard but they crave the light.

The trees see the light through the dismal day, and are reaching up high needing to touch and become one with the warmth that the sun offers. They wrap their limbs around the sun, taking hold of the sun and finding hope. The sun shines over those trees that grabbed hold on it, and they are covered with the warmth, no matter how hard life has been. They now have hope. With hope everything is possible.

When becoming one with the sun, (son) and allowing the light to shine from ones soul, all is possible. That hope brings forth rest, and one is able to breath, become refreshed, and feel safe and experience love fully.

The trees are given strength to stand strong, no matter the curves and twists life had taken in ones life, they have the sun. (son)

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Storm Rolling in over the sea.

I painted this picture today. I took to pics of it trying to get the exact painting colors right to show on blogger. Laughs the colors are close.

Please share what you think. While painting it I allowed my passion to show. :) I wonder if others can see that I did so.


Tuesday, May 27, 2008

When God speaks he expects to be heard.

Lately the same theme keeps arising in my life. I keep coming upon the words "Open the eyes to my heart Lord". I am hearing them all through my day and through my night. Whether it be in dreams, or bible studies, or even during my quiet times.

I hear the words over and over in my soul. I have sat quietly and heard the words, I have felt the words in my spirit, and seen the words written out.

I become confused truthfully because i know the Lord is talking to me. He wants me to hear him, and I sat wondering this morning why? I thought my eyes were open, I thought my heart, soul, and spirit were open to seeing.... Only to have the Lord speak louder to me. To open my eyes!

I opened up my bible today to read and study the word. I have a womans study bible. In this bible there are little stories written through out the chapters of the bible from Christian women, trying to help one relate with the passages in each book. Today i was reading the book of Romans. During this reading a woman by the name of Jennette Lockerbie talks about Romans 7:14-21. I would like to share what I have read.

Troublesome Me

A wise woman once said, "The person I have the most trouble with is the person I see in the mirror every day."
Surely this is an honest admission. What Christian has not sincerely grieved over her own spiritual shortcomings: over "doing those things I ought not to have done"
No follower of Christ was ever more acutely conscious of this very trait and tendency than the apostle Paul. We might take comfort from this thought. But to allow ourselves to be trapped in Satan's snare--wallowing in despair -- is to disparage the limitless, liberating grace of God.
Let us then not linger in this valley of spiritual desolation. There is a way to get rid of "troublesome you," or "troublesome me". The cry, "who will rescue me"? (Romans 7:24) echoes to the very throne of God. The reply, ringing with triumphant deliverance and assurance, echoes to our very ears.

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1)

How does this relate to me opening my eyes? I am a strong believer in Christ. I believe I am saved. I however keep worrying that my past mistakes, my past sins makes me unable to truly reach out and help others, or to share Gods word with others. I keep thinking that i am not worthy, that I have sinned to much, and who am I to reach out to others? Yes I know i have been forgiven. Yes I know I know I have been saved. However what makes me think that I am worthy enough to be used by God? To believe that I am good enough to teach or help others do what I myself did not do in my past? I consider myself one who has sinned so much in my past, that who am I to show anyone the way to Christ?

God shouted at me again to OPEN MY EYES! He then proceeded to show me today through another devotional study i am reading. In this study i read "If you can't imagine God ever delivering you from the corruption of evil desires and bring forth a great harvest through your life then you have bought into the Lie that God's promises do not apply to you."

He has shown me that "He knew me before I was even a thought. He knew me in my mothers womb, and has already seen who I would become. HE saw what i would do , the mistakes I would make, as well as the plans he has for me.

Who am I to tell God I am not good enough to do his work?"

Ephesians 1:18 says, "I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you".

God knows the plans he has for me. If only I would open my eyes and allow him to show himself to me, and his plans he has for me.

I best start opening my eyes to my heart, allow myself to truly see......

So here I am.... "Open my eyes to my heart Lord, I want to see you."

On a side note: I have been slowly learning to knit. It has taken me a lot of practice, pulling out all my stitches and restarting. I have had to reconsider what my first project should be. Knitting a shawl as my very first project is not something I should be doing. I have had to focus on something much smaller to start out with. I am now making a scarf. A simple one. God has shown me in this area also that I need to slow down, and allow myself time to learn. He also made it clear that Praying through out the whole process is important for me. This scarf that I am knitting is to be filled with prayers regarding my future, and prayers for myself regarding the Lord. It keeps my eyes focused on him. It keeps me in prayer, and allows a closeness with God. :) I will show my progress soon.

Hugs and blessings.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Why it is important to remember our Soldiers and those who died protecting us this Memorial day.

I do not often talk about this topic. It is because I feel so strongly about the men and women who are protecting our country. These men and women are true heroes. They go off to parts of the world to protect "our" right to freedom. These men and women get up and, fight for our rights to talk freely, to believe or not to believe in God freely, to have a right to be a Republican, Democrat, Independent Voter or even not to have an opinion at all. They are fighting and dying for our very right to think independently, and to live a life with the privilege to have free will, and freedom!

Memorial day is a day where each of our unsung heroes should be remembered.

Our Military should be shown support, and shown that the people in this country care, love and appreciate all they do for the United States. We owe a huge Thank you to each and every soldier who have fought for us, and who continue fighting for us. We should be thanking every fallen soldiers family for the sacrifice given for you and I.

These men and women who are in the military deserve our respect, and our gratitude.

I think that all the fighting that goes on between Republicans, and Democrats regarding this war, the Soldiers who are smack dab in the middle and living in danger every single day become forgotten. I can not speak for everyone, but i can say that I personally am proud of them. I am aware of the danger they face and why they are fighting. I am aware that they hold Americans freedom close to their hearts. I am aware that they believe in our freedom and will die for us to keep that very freedom. Their bravery, courage, and love for our country leaves me feeling proud!

Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for fighting for my freedom.

May God bless and protect you and your families.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Please remember what Memorial day weekend is all about. Remember the men and women who died protecting us. Say a prayer for the families of those men and women who died. Please continue praying for those men and women who are still protecting our country, pray that they will make it home safe.

Waking this morning I walked to my coffee maker to pour myself a cup of coffee. With warm cup in hand, yawning, stretching and trying to wake up, the lovely aroma of coffee hit my senses. I took my first sip savoring the richness of the flavor, thinking there is nothing better then that first sip of coffee first thing in the morning. I was soon to be proven wrong. Enjoying my coffee, and the quiet of the morning I walked over and pulled open the blinds in the great room. As the blinds were pulled back from our sliding glass door, a glorious image appeared in front of my eyes leaving me in awe as I stood there and looked at the glorious painting that only God could produce.

My spirit instantly awakened and danced with joy at seeing this sunrise. I was wrong, something could be better then that first wonderful sip of coffee. God just proved it. The simple beauty of a sunrise can awaken the soul instantly.

I then thought I wish i could share with all I love the beauty outside my door. It dawned on me I could capture it with a picture. I sat down my coffee and went in search of something to take a picture with. I tried to hurry before the sunrise was lost to the day. The only camera close to me right then was my phone camera.

I tried to capture all the vivid pinks and rose colors. I wanted a picture that showed how the sunrise hit the water, making it shine with color, but being a phone cam it could only do so much. It however captured some of the beauty I was seeing.

To all my friends out there all over the world, may your spirit dance with joy at the next sunrise you see.

Hugs and Blessings to all, may your weekend be a memorable one, filled with little moments like i just had.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end.
They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods wh ere his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.

Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind 's e y e as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.

It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the w a ll .

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present .'

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Making one of my wishes come true.

Today i just went out and bought all the stuff i will need to learn how to knit.

I decided on making a prayer shawl for my first project. We shall see how I do. I will try and document my progress as i go. This is a picture of all the stuff i just bought.

A prayer shawl is something that one actually prays over before, during and after the knitting process. When the recipient receives the shawl and wears it they are surrounded in prayer.

When choosing the color for a shawl i found that each color actually has a meaning.

Color and Meaning

Red - Energy, strength, power, determination, love , courage

Pink - Joy, friendship, femininity

Brown - Stability, masculinity

Orange - Happiness, success, encouragement, endurance

Gold - Illumination, wisdom

Yellow - Cheerfulness, energy, joy, confidence

Green - Healing, harmony, safety, hope, protection, peace

Blue - Stability, trust, loyalty, faith, truth, tranquility

Purple - Wisdom, dignity, independence, creativity, mystery

White - Goodness, purity, innocence, faith, safety, light

The color I chose for my first project is plum. (Purple)

My Shawl is going to be for a close friend of mine who is dealing with a lot of confusion, and change in her life right now. Her husband has been put in a home and has Alzheimer's. He is in the end stages.

She needs the wisdom to deal with this situation, and is needing to learn how to live on her own independently after many years of being married. That is why I chose the color purple for my prayer shawl.

I had a hard time choosing between red or purple, but since she is partial to purple it was a deciding factor. Hopefully it will be a shawl of not only warmth and comfort for her, but one of love and hope.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

I found this wonderful idea from The Simple Woman blog

Normally this is to be done on Monday's, and i am a day late, but i thought i would start it today, and then do this on every Monday following. I think it is a cool idea. I added the place on my side bar (with the above picture) that will take you right to the place to sign up also if you like. Just click on the picture!


Outside my Window...The stormy end of a day with lots of wind and rain. Hopefully tomorrow will be a sunny one.

I am thinking...Of my lily girl. (Maltese puppy, well over one now, but still a puppy to me) Hard not to think of her right now, especially since she is wanting me to play with her. When i am done with the post, i will be playing with her. lol Again for the umpteenth time today.

I am thankful for...My new blogger friend Denise, who sent me two tee shirts for my friend Tart and I today in the mail. I love the shirts, as i know my friend Tart will! They are just gorgeous, and say "Friends Through Blogging, Sisters Through Christ" The words surround a heart with two hands holding one another. I will take a picture of the tee shirt soon and share it on my blog.

From the kitchen...Chicken parm, lima beans, parm rosemary polenta, and strawberry shortcake for dessert.

I am creating... A new painting for my nephew who is getting married soon. It will be a painting of the sea.

I am going... No where at the moment because i am still detoxing the lead out of my system and it is hard to go to far from home.

I am wearing... Cozy blue pajamas.

I am reading... The bible, ( Book of John on chapter 9) and another Debbie Macomber book called 44 Cranberry Point.

I am hoping... That this will be the last time i have to detox.

I am hearing... My guys returning home from boy scouts. They are laughing about something.

Around the house...A new rose garden that my youngest son and husband planted for me on Mothers day. Dirt that needs grass seed, pecan trees , and a forest of other trees behind my house. One tree actually has a hole in it where a raccoon now lives. I can see him on occasion at dusk, or early dawn.

One of my favorite things...Is drinking a hot cup of white tea scented with berries in the late afternoon before my guys get home, and my quiet ends.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week...Shopping for a gift for my sons 17th birthday,shop for his birthday dinner request, and spending time painting in my painting room. As well as just take each day slowly while i deal with the side effects of detoxing.

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you... A picture of my Lily girl. I will take a new one of her soon, to show how she has grown. This one is a pic of an older one, she is still as adorable now as she was then.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

To all my blogger friends.

I just wanted to leave a quick note letting everyone know how very much I appreciate the readers of my blog. Each one of you are a blessing, and I value all the comments, prayers, and support from each and every one of you. I personally have felt your prayers, and know they work. I know with out them I would be experiencing more pain, and not have as much strength in fighting the issues that have plagued me over the years. I am truly blessed that people care, and for all of the moral support I have received here on my blog.

I also wanted to point out the new profile I have written of who I am. I think it is a more accurate sharing of the lady I have become.

Thank you again to all my readers, those that comment , and even those few that read my blog but do not leave a comment.

I hope you all have a wonderfully blessed weekend!

Friday, May 16, 2008

Put your hand in the hand

I wasn't going to mention this but I think it is a big deal and should be posted about.

Today is officially two months since I have had no alcohol. It is a big deal for me because honestly speaking I have had to fight every day in not wanting a drink. I have had days where I did not think about getting a drink, but most days are pain days for me, and there are some days I hurt so badly that nothing I do will take the pain away. Those are the days I really want something to numb the pain if even for a moment. A pain free moment. I have fought through those thoughts of wanting a glass of wine.

It is a huge deal, a huge accomplishment, and something I am very proud of.

The song is just an added bonus, and one that I remember listening to when i was younger. It still is a great song, and one that brings a smile to my face, and a feeling of total happiness when hearing.


Tuesday, May 13, 2008

I haven't been feeling all that great lately. This round of detoxing has been different for me. It has made my head not only hurt, but I feel like i have a cold. My ears, nose, and throat all hurt. I know it is not a cold, because in late afternoon i feel better. My sore throat goes away, and my ears unplug. Only to return with the next dose of detox. So it is probably the lead and what ever other chemicals being flushed out of my system. I have been constantly tired, and most days i do not feel like doing a whole lot other then cozy up on either the couch or in a chair on my deck with a good book.

The latest book i have read is called twenty wishes by Debbie Macomber. I really enjoyed reading this book. It is about four widows who are having a hard time moving forward in their lives. They get together on Valentines day and come up with this wonderful idea of writing down 20 wishes. The wishes don't need to be practical. That is why they are called wishes instead of resolutions or goals. Also a wish is exactly that, it might not come true, but it is something you hope does. :)

While reading this book it made me wonder about what I would wish for? Through out the last few years I feel I lost a sense of purpose. That is one reason i went through cleansing streams. To get my purpose back. I have it, i love God fully and i feel blessed that I did this class.

Because of things that occurred in my past over the years, I lost who I was. I do not remember having many dreams. I gave up learning who i was. Since about 18 years old I have been leading my life for others. I have always been worried about others, and not necessarily about myself. I did as others wished me to do. I gave up on any kind of dreams long ago. I was afraid to dream.

When I married my husband of today I started to feel encouraged. My husband would push me to dream and discover likes and dislikes. I did discover a love for cooking and painting, but i think i was afraid to dream of more. That is until I started healing, and gained a strength in knowing the Lord.

The Cleansing streams class has given me confidence and has shown me who I am. I am a lady who adores the Lord and has a strong faith in Jesus. I am also a wife and mother, as well as a daughter, sister and a friend. I am as the below test points out a Considerate Creator. I know these things and feel they are all wonderful qualities. I feel truly blessed.

Now I can move forward with my own dreams and discovering more about who I am.

I have decided to follow the lead in this book, and write down twenty wishes. :)

Coming up with twenty wishes is really a way of discovering ones likes and dislikes, as well as gaining a knowledge within ones self. It allows a person to gain confidence, and a sense of accomplishment when trying to fulfill ones wishes. Yet if the wishes are not fulfilled in the near future then it allows one hope and something to dream about.

I have come up with a few wishes already. I found it is not as easy as one might think to write down 20 wishes. I am going to post my wishes somewhere on my blog so I can continually add on to them, and see how many wishes i can personally make come true.

Mysti's Twenty Wishes (Wishes and hopes)

1. Have my very own exhibit in a gallery show casing my paintings.
2. Go to Ireland with my husband ( my husband and i always wanted to have a honeymoon.)
3. Learn how to knit. ( I want to start knitting prayer shawls, for those i love.)
4. Take a self defense course
5. Sell pastries to the local businesses in my area
6. Laugh just for the joy of laughing
7. Learn how to Ballroom Dance
8. Travel to areas in the world where I have friends
9. Write a book and get it published
10. Swim with dolphins

Monday, May 12, 2008

I took a dna test today. I got it from Sonnies and Raines blog.

I found that the test was pretty accurate. I found it interesting when seeing the results, because in the last few months I have gained more confidence with in myself, and I have changed in some areas of my life. I am more aware of who I am not only emotionally, but spiritually. I am not sure if I had taken this test a year ago, I would have had the same results. In fact i know the results would have been different. It is amazing what a few short months will do for ones growth, maturity and personality.

Thank you Sonnie and Raine for sharing this test!

You are a Considerate Creator.

You are a Creator

Your imagination, confidence, willingness to explore, and appreciation of beauty make you a CREATOR.

You are independent, and you enjoy your self-sufficiency.

Defying convention, you are very innovative, and you have a vivid imagination.

The look of things is important to you, and you have a keen eye for aesthetic beauty in multiple arenas.

You have a strong interest in what is new and exciting—and that includes forging ahead with new ideas, not simply discovering what is already out there.

Your eagerness to seek new and varied experiences leads you into many different situations.

You're not set on one way of doing things, and you are creative when it comes to finding novel solutions to complex problems.

You trust yourself to be innovative and resourceful.

Your confidence allows you to take your general awareness and channel it into creativity.

You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.

You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.

You do your own thing when it comes to clothing, guided more by practical concerns than by other people's notions of style.

If you want to be different:

Appreciate the earthly, practical elements of things—there is beauty in form as well.

While you are good at thinking abstractly, focusing on details a bit more may help you discover things about the world.
how you relate to others

You are Considerate

You trust others, care about them, and are slow to judge them, making you CONSIDERATE.

You value your close relationships very much, and are more likely to spend time in small, tightly-knit groups of friends than in large crowds.

You enjoy exploring the world through observation, quietly watching others.

Relating to others so well, and understanding their emotions, leads you to trust people in general, even though you're somewhat shy and reserved at times.

Your belief that people are generally well-intentioned contributes to your sympathy regarding their problems.

Although you may not vocalize it often, you have an awareness of how society affects individuals, and you understand complex causes of people's behavior.

You like to look at all sides of a situation before making a judgment, particularly when that situation involves important things in other people's lives.

Your close friends know you as a good listener.

If you want to be different:

Because other people would benefit immensely from your understanding and insight, you should try to be more outgoing in social situations, even when they make you uncomfortable. Others will want to hear what you have to say!

My personalDNA Report

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

My friend Tart showed me this on her site today. It is a very powerful video. It is well worth the time to watch. Be warned though and pull out the Kleenex. I cried as I watched.

How many times have we gone through our day and not told those we love and care about that we are proud of them, and how much they mean to us? With out knowing it, someone around us might need some special words of encouragement or love shown to them.

You never know how just a few kind words might change a life decision forever.

Today we are living in a world filled with spiritual darkness. People all about us are groping for something to bring light into their darkened lives. God has entrusted to us the ministry of being a shining light for Jesus Christ, the light of the world. Paul wrote that we are "children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe" (Philippians 2:15). He doesn't place all of us in the same place to shine. Some may be called to shine in faraway places; others in their families, neighborhoods and places of business.

Sometimes we are in such a dark place we think our small light cannot be seen. How untrue that thought is. A candle in total darkness does wonders! All it takes is taking the time and sharing our light with another, to bring that person out of darkness.

Jesus, the light of the world, shining through our lives, can bring light into the darkness wherever he has placed us, even though we think our light very small.


Sunday, May 4, 2008

Thought I would do this just for fun. I am in a mellow mood, trying to relax and not focus on pain. I got this off of my blogger friend Deb's page.

Your Mind is Blue

Of all the mind types, yours is the most mellow.

You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don't try to think away your troubles.

Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they are.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

I have a lot of new readers to my blog. Most do not know what kind of health issues I have. I have started detoxing again, and felt before talking about it I should let my new readers know some of the health issues I am dealing with.

I have been diagnosed with three main health issues.

1. Lead Poisoning: What is lead poisoning? Lead is a neurotoxic metallic element that can be absorbed by the body, primarily through the lungs and stomach. Lead poisoning occurs only when too much lead accumulates in the body. Generally, lead poisoning occurs slowly, resulting from the gradual accumulation of lead in bone and tissue after repeated exposure.

2. Von Willebrand disease:

What is von Willebrand Disease? Von Willebrand Disease is a bleeding disorder caused by a defect or deficiency of a blood clotting protein, called von Willebrand Factor. The disease is estimated to occur in 1% to 2% of the population. The disease was first described by Erik von Willebrand, a Finnish physician who reported a new type of bleeding disorder among island people in Sweden and Finland.

Von Willebrand Factor is a protein critical to the initial stages of blood clotting. This glue-like protein, produced by the cells that line the blood vessel walls, interacts with blood cells called platelets to form a plug which prevents the blood from flowing at the site of injury. People with von Willebrand Disease are unable to make this plug because they do not have enough von Willebrand Factor or their factor is abnormal.

Usually, people with VWD bruise easily, have recurrent nosebleeds, or bleed after tooth extraction, tonsillectomy or other surgery. Recurrent nosebleeds are also a hallmark of VWD. Women can have increased menstrual bleeding. Aspirin and many of the drugs used for pain can aggravate bleeding because they interfere with platelet function.

3. Fibromyalgia: Fibromyalgia is a clinical syndrome defined by chronic widespread muscular pain, fatigue and tenderness. Many people with fibromyalgia also experience additional symptoms such as fatigue, headaches, irritable bowel syndrome, irritable bladder, cognitive and memory problems (often called “fibro fog”), temporomandibular joint disorder, pelvic pain, restless leg syndrome, sensitivity to noise and temperature, and anxiety and depression. These symptoms can vary in intensity and, like the pain of fibromyalgia, wax and wane over time.

I have high levels of lead in my body. We are not entirely sure why. Although recently a news article came out saying that people who were raised in Los Angels in the late 60s and early 70s are turning up in their later years of having lead poisoning. The reason is because of smog. Leaded Gas fumes were the cause. I was born and raised in that area during that time.

My doctor feels that i have fibromyalgia and bleeding issues because of the lead in my body. We are hoping that detoxing as much lead as i can out of my body will turn those problems around and make them a non issue.

However the detoxing has been very hard on my body, and I tend to only be able to detox a little bit at a time.

I started detoxing once again a few days ago. I need to detox for a solid month. I am already feeling sick while doing it. I tend to become very tired, and have a lot of irritable bowel problems along with a pretty upset stomach. Fibromyalgia issues also seem to be worse. Probably because the lead is being flushed out, and my body is trying to keep up with it.

This should be the last time i have to detox for some time. In about two months my doctor will be doing more tests to see if the lead levels in my body are lower. I am praying that they will be. :)

I wanted to let everyone know I probably will not blog as often during the detox. I will blog as I am able to keep every one updated. If I post anything it most likely will be words of positivity and uplifting songs and poems. They help me feel better. :)

The good news is when i did the detox program a few months ago i felt so much better after it was over. I had less bleeding issues, and more energy. I am going to keep this in mind during this process.

I will try to remember that every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day.