HAPPY NEW YEARS!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Unable to think
Walking through fog
Hurts to talk
Pain shooting out everywhere
Chest pains are bad
Swollen legs, hands and stomach
Hurts to walk
Hurts to be touched
Emotions all over the place
Wanting it all to fade away
That is how i feel today.
Going back to bed.
Posted by Tracy at 9:32 AM
Friday, December 28, 2007
While sitting in prayer and just being silent, this song came to me.
I know the Lord has led me to post this song for someone out there who will be reading my blog. Its a beautiful song. It has a way of touching the soul. At times i just want to fly away myself. Maybe it was meant for me as well as for you who are reading my blog today. The Lord has a way of getting his message across.
May this song be a special blessing for those meant to hear it.
Posted by Tracy at 6:54 PM
Thursday, December 27, 2007
As i looked back at my other posts i realized i have now officially been blogging for two years.
December 21st two years ago i posted for the very first time. It is funny actually the post i chose this year on my blog that day was the B*tch song. I am Laughing because that is exactly how i am still feeling right now. Must be something in the air....
I look back at my two years of blogging and I can see how i have changed. The first year of posting was really needed in expressing my past, and all the pain i had gone through. I also had so many days of dealing with my fibromyalgia.
I felt i made some great blogger friends. I needed the support and encouragement of those friends. I also became stronger, I spoke out against people whom i felt were playing games, and even after speaking out, I survived. :)
This second year of blogging i have been less vocal. I lost some relationships, I learned that they were not friends at all, only illusions. Unhealthy ones. When i stepped back from some i could breath again, and i found again i survived it. I stood up for my beliefs, I did not back down, and i still survived. :)
I stopped blogging mostly because I became tired of exposing myself to some who wanted to use my thoughts against me, but I also found I had no real need to blog. I was ok with this.
This past year has been a time for looking with in myself with out the need of showing others that person. I learned to trust my own instincts regarding people. I learned that it was ok to let others go if they added sickness to my life. I am healthier for it. There are times when i still get fooled, and see illusions where I thought reality existed. It still makes me angry at times when I see games being played, but i learned how to stop the insanity. It is easier to pin point games and illusions whether it is from people i have met here online or off.
So now year number three is here. I am at a cross roads again. I find i do want to blog, but not like i have been. My last two blogs have been ones where i had to think carefully of what I wanted to say or show others. I held back many times in my writing because i did not want my thoughts and ideas to be attacked. Therefore not allowing who i am fully as a person to be shown.
I think a blog should be a creative release of feelings and thoughts. It should be an outlet for the person who is blogging. I want this third year to be a blog about all sides of Mysti, whether it is a nice side of me or not. I want it to be an outlet for my thoughts and ideas, one for my pain, my happiness, my hopes and my dreams. If i want to post all about Christ I should be able to do so with out wondering if that side of me will be trashed. If i want to rage and show how very human i am inside even if it is an ugly side of me i should be able to do so. I am a diverse lady if truth be told, one with many different sides.
I have finally come to the conclusion if what i write offends others, or upsets those who read my blog, I really do not care.
It is my blog, my life, and those who have a problem with it? To bad, you should just get over it........
I am not ashamed of who i am. So i am going to let loose all sides of me.
As the song goes by Meredith Brooks:
"I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one".
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
Just when you think you've got me figured out
the season's already changing
Heres looking at a new year!
May it be one full of surprises and blessings for not only those who read my blog but for me!
"YOU KNOW I WOULDN'T WANT IT ANY OTHER WAY"
Posted by Tracy at 4:55 PM
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Twas the Night before Christmas Poem
Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that St Nicholas soon would be there.
The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of sugar-plums danced in their heads.
And mamma in her ‘kerchief, and I in my cap,
Had just settled our brains for a long winter’s nap.
When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.
The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow
Gave the lustre of mid-day to objects below.
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a miniature sleigh, and eight tinny reindeer.
With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St Nick.
More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,
And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name!
"Now Dasher! now, Dancer! now, Prancer and Vixen!
On, Comet! On, Cupid! on, on Donner and Blitzen!
To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!
Now dash away! Dash away! Dash away all!"
As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky.
So up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
With the sleigh full of Toys, and St Nicholas too.
And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my head, and was turning around,
Down the chimney St Nicholas came with a bound.
He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot.
A bundle of Toys he had flung on his back,
And he looked like a peddler, just opening his pack.
His eyes-how they twinkled! his dimples how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow.
The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
That shook when he laughed, like a bowlful of jelly!
He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
And I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself!
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.
He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
And filled all the stockings, then turned with a jerk.
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose!
He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim, ‘ere he drove out of sight,
"Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good-night!"
Clement Clarke Moore (1779 - 1863) wrote the poem Twas the night before Christmas also called “A Visit from St. Nicholas" in 1822. It is now the tradition in many American families to read the poem every Christmas Eve. The poem Twas the night before Christmas has redefined our image of Christmas and Santa Claus. Prior to the creation of the story of Twas the night before Christmas St. Nicholas, the patron saint of children, had never been associated with a sleigh or reindeers! The author of the poem Twas the night before Christmas was a reticent man and it is believed that a family friend, Miss H. Butler, sent a copy of the poem to the New York Sentinel who published the poem. The condition of publication was that the author of Twas the night before Christmas was to remain anonymous. The first publication date was 23rd December 1823 and it was an immediate success. It was not until 1844 that Clement Clarke Moore claimed ownership when the work was included in a book of his poetry. Clement Clarke Moore came from a prominent family and his father Benjamin Moore was the Bishop of New York who was famous for officiating at the inauguration of George Washington. The tradition of reading Twas the night before Christmas poem on Christmas Eve is now a Worldwide institution.
Posted by Tracy at 7:00 PM
Friday, December 21, 2007
I know this is not a song i normally post on my blog. I am posting it though for a friend who is having a hard time this Christmas. I want to show her I have had similar problems this year.
I have been playing this song over and over.
It is not a polite song, but it is who i am deep down right now.(do not tell me i am not please) I am human. "Very human". I have my ups and downs like anyone else, and sometimes that shows in a not so nice way.
I am angry for some reason at times this year. I have this energy that wants to break free. The anger shows.
It is ok.
I accept I am not perfect. I accept that I am human.
I also accept Jesus in my heart.
If this song offends you, ok....... I understand.
I am still playing it. Be warned, do not listen if you offend easy.
Posted by Tracy at 7:35 PM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Posted by Tracy at 7:40 PM
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Christmas is such a special time of the year for me and my family. It's a time to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ.
In my home decorations are put out right after Thanksgiving. The other day while out driving at night i noticed most every house was lit up with very festive Christmas lights, and yards were decorated proudly, showing Americas love for Christmas. Yet if you go into most of the main stores here in America one is not to say the words Merry Christmas! The politically correct thing to say now is Happy Holidays or Seasons Greetings. In fact if you say Merry Christmas to the cashier or check out person you will most likely hear silence.
My sons are in school and it is that time of year when school plays are being put on.
When i was a child, my parents came to watch our school plays about the birth of Jesus, and hear us sing proudly the songs well remembered by many. We sang Joy to the World, Silent night, and "We Wish You a Merry Christmas!" Now the programs that are put on by our schools, none of those songs will be heard, and one will not see a play about the birth of Jesus. How sad is that?
According to an article posted by the ADF:
ADF announced November 15, 2006, that it has more than 950 allied attorneys available nationwide to combat any improper attempts to censor the celebration of Christmas in schools and on public property. A request for legal representation is available online:
The angels proclaimed His name and so can we:
An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger." Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests." When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about." (Luke 2: 9-15)
Federal law proclaims "Christmas Day, December 25." 5 U.S.C. § 6103. Even judges know it:
The fact that § 6103 may accommodate Christians who wish to engage in religious celebrations of Jesus Christ's birth does not mean that the holiday has an impermissible religious effect. The Supreme Court forcefully has stated "when the state … cooperates with religious authorities by adjusting the schedule of public events to sectarian needs, it follows the best of our traditions. Ganulin v United States, 71 F Supp 2d 824, 836 (S.D. Ohio 1999) (citing Zorach v. Clauson, 343 U.S. 306, 313-14 (1952); aff'd, 2000 U.S. App. LEXIS 33889 (U.S. App. LEXIS 6th Cir. 2000); cert. denied, 532 US 973 (2001).
"Frankly, it's ridiculous that Americans have to think twice about whether it's okay to say 'Merry Christmas,'" said ADF President Alan Sears. "Thanks to the ACLU and its allies, Christmas isn't what it used to be. It's time to repair the damage that such organizations have done to America's favorite holiday. An overwhelming majority of Americans oppose censoring Christmas."
According to recent polls:
* 95 percent of Americans celebrate Christmas (Fox News/Opinion Dynamics, 2005).
* 90 percent of Americans recognize Christmas as the birthday of Jesus Christ (Gallup, 2000).
* 88 percent of Americans say it is okay for people to wish others "Merry Christmas," and the majority of Americans are more likely to wish someone they just met "Merry Christmas" rather than "Happy Holidays" (CNN/USA Today/Gallup, 2004).
* 87 percent of Americans believe nativity scenes should be allowed on public property (Fox News/Opinion Dynamics, 2003).
The purpose of the joint Christmas project is to clear up misconceptions about seasonal religious expression on public property:
* The U.S. Supreme Court has never ruled that public schools must ban the singing of religious Christmas carols or prohibit the distribution of candy canes or Christmas cards.
* School officials do not violate the Constitution by closing on religious holidays such as Christmas and Good Friday.
* School officials are not legally obligated to recognize all other religious holidays simply because they officially recognize Thanksgiving or Christmas.
* School officials may use "Christmas Vacation" to refer to the December holiday break without offending the Constitution.
* Government-sponsored Christmas displays are not banned as some people believe. When faced with the question of whether a Christmas display is constitutional, a court simply asks, "Is the government celebrating the holiday or promoting religion?
It is time for Christians to take back Christmas.
Posted by Tracy at 7:04 AM