Monday, February 4, 2008

In memory of my mother

My mom passed away on this day. Its been 11 years now, and still i feel like it was only yesterday. I hurt. For many reasons. I will never have closure where my mother is concerned, but i know one thing, the older i get the closer i get to understanding her.

She was a lady with many passions, and many health issues, many of which i now have myself. I see my mother in me now. I have many of her qualities. I never thought i would say that. I feel like I am becoming my mother. Lets hope i have a happier ending. :)

My mother was married 4 times. Twice to my father. This song divorce i remember sitting in a car one day and listening to her singing it. She sang it with such passion. I was only about 10 years old, and thought she just liked the song. Now i know she related with it.

Mom I miss you. I love you and hope one day i will have the closer i need. One day when we both are in heaven i am sure i will have it.

Mommy i miss you.


Deb said...

Thinking of you, Mysti....sending hugs.

wolfbaby said...

many hugs mysti

'Tart said...

I was thinking of you, Mysti, and came by to say hello. I can relate to this as tomorrow would have been my father's birthday, and he died exactly one month later, last year. So it's fresh and I can understand that it always will be, much like your Mom's. The distance from occurance doesn't seem to make a difference, and I'm sorry for the loss(es) that you feel concerning this.

I know a lot of people don't understand or relate to this one, but tomorrow is the 3 year anniversary of when I had to put to sleep my most beloved pet. I actually cry now and at other odd times. I don't handle death well. Yes, he was a cat, but such a sensitive understanding friend. A special soul. I hope I can just keep this on your comments and try not to say more.

I have written a meme, if you want to look.

Most of all, big hugs and blessings to you at this time for you Mysti. Like I said, I can understand the sadness and other feelings and I wish you well. I am thinking and praying for you.:)

Ben Tobias said...

Dear Mysti,

I'm writing from the BBC World Service in London. On Wednesday 13th February the programme 'World Have Your Say' will be talking about different ways of dealing with pain, with people across the world.
Would you like to take part to share your experiences? if so, you can email me at If you send me a phone number to call you on I'll give you a ring to discuss it further. You can find out more about the programme on this link

Best regards,

Ben Tobias
BBC World Service