What are you risking?

I have found through the class i am now taking that i have been afraid to take risks the last few years. I have been hurt so many times in my life, that i became tired of being hurt. I have learned to put a huge wall of protection around my heart. This is a common thing to do when a person has had to deal with so much pain in life. When you put up such strong walls though you end up missing out on so much in life.

You miss out on the good that God surrounds us with every single day in our lives.

All my life i feel like i put walls around me. I would tear them down, only to be hurt again by yet another person or situation. So the walls went back up. It has become a pattern with me. A pattern i need to break.

Life is full of pain. Life is full of danger. Life has so many unknowns that it makes it hard to trust and risk being hurt again.

Life however is full of blessings, and happiness also.

If one blocks out all the pain and danger, then they are no longer able to experience the many blessings and happiness life has to offer also.

I am developing a new walk with God.
In this class I am taking, it teaches a person to lean into God, to hold his hand and have a very personal one on one relationship with God.

Always before I have believed in God. I have prayed, and felt God in my life, but i missed one huge piece in my relationship with him. A person not only has to pray to God, and believe in him they have to reach out their hand to God and take his hand.

One has to allow God to talk with you. One has to hear God and what he has to say to you. A person has to walk with God hand in hand, and at times as my favorite poem "FootPrints" says allow him to carry you in times of trouble.

I am learning that one not only has to believe in God, but to trust him to deal with all the pain and danger life brings your way.

It is not easy giving over the reigns of my life to God. I fight it every day, but every day i keep Gods hand firmly in mine. I am not letting his hand go this time.

It is so easy to not want to give full power and control over to God. That is what one has to do in order to fully walk with God. Its hard not to take that control back and try to do it all myself with just him watching on. I however found that when i am in charge of everything life becomes a messed up ugly blob of goo that is hard to see through. When i hand over all to God and he is in charge and running the controls in my life, everything becomes so clear.

I have a lot more to learn, and feel i am on the right path now in taking this class.

My Journey with God is just beginning.



To laugh is to risk being as a fool.
To weep is to risk being sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement.
To expose your feelings is to risk exposing your
true self. To place your ideas and dreams before a
crowd is to risk their loss. To love is to risk not being
loved in return. To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But the risks must be taken because the
greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, has nothing.
She/he may avoid suffering and sorrow cannot learn,
feel, change, grow or live. Chained by
her/his servitude she/he is a slave who has forfeited
all freedom. Only a person who risks is free.
The pessimist complains about the wind expects it
to change and the realist adjusts the sails.