Feeling unappreciated

I am Grumpy today, annoyed and irritated. In fact i just want to cry.

I am having these feelings, because i am constantly sick and try to keep a positive attitude about being such.

I am annoyed because i work hard at being positive, and no one really knows i am sick.

I am irritated because i go out of my way to make my family feel loved and they have no clue how sick i am feeling.

I am ticked off because when i am feeling sick i still go out of my way to make my family dinner, and i get comments like Chicken again? Or comments like why didn't you make this with that or... the worse, i am not hungry, when only half an hour prior i was told i am starving and asked when is dinner?

I am grumpy when i go out of my way to be a good mom, when all i want is someone to mother me when i am feeling like crap.

I am rather annoyed at the moment that my husband had the gall to complain about the butter being left out and having to deal with a soft messy butter wrapper, when i did not have to cook at all! I could have said fend for yourself, i feel awful and did not want to cook! So deal with the little bit of a mess that i left out after cooking.

I am wanting to cry because i woke sick again, and will most likely go out of my way to fix dinner for my family, and not hear a positive word about me doing so.

I want to cry because my house is a mess, and i do not want to clean it up, but hate living in a mess. It makes me feel worse. So chances are good i will clean, and put a positive face on.



Maybe i should tell them to find a maid. At least they get a pay check.