Saturday, February 24, 2007


Thank you everyone for all the sweet words of encouragement. I was and am very touched. I have improved in some areas regarding my health issues. My bleeding has stopped I am very happy to say. I am sure it was because of all the many prayers being sent me way.

The issues with Fibromyalgia I am still struggling with. I have struggled with the problem now for about 15 years now. I have had years where the fibromyalgia was so awful that I could not get out of bed, and years where it really was not a problem at all. This year seems to be somewhere in the middle. I still get out of bed, and move about and do things, but it has limited how much I do. I am dealing with an never ending headache, as well as pain that seems to have taken over all my muscles.

I have read every article I can get my hands on regarding Fibromyalgia as well as talked with doctors and others that deal with the same issues. I have changed my diet, exercised, done all the slow movements that have been assured would help the pain, only to find that the best thing I can do is just be patient and allow it to eventually pass.

Stress will trigger Fibro, and I have been through a lot of stress this year. I think the number one thing I am dealing with besides the pain is the depression that has accompanies Fibro. I know I am depressed. I have been slowly fighting the depression off, but it has caught up with me.

It always amazes me when depression strikes, because I try so very hard not to allow it to happen. I have been depressed now for several weeks. I am trying to pull myself out of it. The upcoming of spring should help. Moving into our new house should also help. I think part of my depression is that I rarely see my husband, because he is so busy working, and trying to get our house finished. He went off for three weeks to Alaska for his work, which did not help any. That slowed down the process of getting things done on our house. I know there is nothing he can do about being away so much, He has no real choice in the matter. I am finding though that It really has contributed to my depression.

I guess depression is stress in itself, and maybe that is why my fibro has hit me so hard. It has not helped me any that my fibro has affected the muscles in my throat. Most days it hurts to talk, so it has also taken away contact with my friends. I have not been able to stay on the phone very long because it really hurts for me to talk. So I feel isolated. That is not helping at all.

I am very depressed. I am hoping it passes soon.

On a side note: My gallery showing went well. It was very exciting. I was a nervous wreck but that was to be expected. My paintings will be displayed for one month at this gallery showing.

Thank you again to everyone who has prayed for me, and for all the wonderful words of encouragement. Thank you to those who wanted me to email them in hopes of helping me. I am very touched. Thank you to those who prayed, and asked others to pray for me. Prayer is strong medicine. Thank you to those who have understood about all I am going through and have not pushed me to talk. Thank you to those who have loved me enough to give me space, and not taken my absence personally. Thank you everyone for all the encouragement.

Thank you.



krystyna said...

Hi Mysti!
Thank you that you are here. I read your post and be back soon.
Today is my very busy day.
Have a wonderful peaceful day!

Anonymous said...

I am sorry you are having such a difficult year!!! I bet your right that getting into your new house and spring and seeing hubby more will do the trick. Take care and know that Im thinking of you.

Hope said...

A few years ago I struggled with depression as a result of the chronic pain of a car accident. Very vicious circle, but one that does have a light at the end of the tunnel. Be well, warm thoughts,

jumpinginpuddles said...

phew finally you blogged we were starting to get really concerned. we hope you continue to feel better

trinitystar said...

Your home will all get done in its own way. Being Stressed out will not make the process of your home to be completed, although it will cause your depression ... and then this leads to increased headaches and pain.
Your health is more important. I wish I could be there to help out. I wish you well ... and hope that you will be filled with strength.
hugs for you.

imo said...

Dear Mysti

We are glad you feel better and know you will continue to improve!! will keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Yay for the gallery showing!! Isn't that a fabulous feeling knowing your art is hanging on the walls in a gallery? It's a feeling we will never forget.

congratulations again!!

keepers and john