Friday, May 16, 2008

Put your hand in the hand

I wasn't going to mention this but I think it is a big deal and should be posted about.

Today is officially two months since I have had no alcohol. It is a big deal for me because honestly speaking I have had to fight every day in not wanting a drink. I have had days where I did not think about getting a drink, but most days are pain days for me, and there are some days I hurt so badly that nothing I do will take the pain away. Those are the days I really want something to numb the pain if even for a moment. A pain free moment. I have fought through those thoughts of wanting a glass of wine.

It is a huge deal, a huge accomplishment, and something I am very proud of.

The song is just an added bonus, and one that I remember listening to when i was younger. It still is a great song, and one that brings a smile to my face, and a feeling of total happiness when hearing.



Hope said...

I just answered a question on gina's blog, and then i came here and read this post.
I've always been a person who enjoyed a drink or two, but 9 years ago, I was in a car accident which left me in chronic pain and before I realized it, I found myself pouring a drink as soon as I came home from work, thinking about that drink while I was on my way home....
using booze to Self medicate.
I decided at tha point that I was headed down a very very slippery slope, and haven't had a drink for years.
There are still days when I crave the numbness.
I'm proud of you hon.

'Tart said...

I finally clicked the YouTube and I 'got' how much Today's inspirational saying, your YouTube and post, our Bible reading, and our conversation all go hand in hand, not to make a pun, but to show how much the Spirit is leading.

I just cry Mysti when I think of how much He is calling, to not give up, to rise up and keep trying on these things that I am working on, and for each of us, whatever our issues.

So lovely, so lovely.

And I publicly dub thee an "Extraordinary Woman" for your fight and conquer(ment) of imbibing alcohol/self medication. To have noticed that something is wrong and done something about it - there are no words friend - maybe stellar, a fighter and an example of your strong heart/soul/spirit. Have a wonderful weekend.

Mike Golch said...

Gongrats on the two months sober.

Wanda's Wings said...

You are always an inspiration to me. Sorry it been so long since I've been around.

Tracy said...

Thank you Hope, Tart, Mike and Wanda for your encouraging words. They mean a lot and are truly appreciated.

Hugs and blessings.

Denise said...

You are so special to the Father God and He will stand with you and He will give you the strength to continue........ good for you..... I have no idea of your pain if it is physical or mental but it does not matter.........God is able and I will pray that God will intervene and give you joy where there was sorry and peace where there was discord and health and contientment where there was pain...... Thank you for the wonderful comment on my ugly hands.... You gals are a gift from God and you will never know how much I love each one of you......... Hugs

Tracy said...

Thank you Denise for your prayers and wonderful words. I am very much looking forward to seeing the teeshirts you are sending me. I just know they will be beautiful. I have written up a new profile, that explains the daily pain i talk about in my post. It also shares a little more about who I am now, the lady i have become. :)

Thank you everyone who have prayed for me, and who have blessed my blog with your presence. I value each and everyone of you, and appreciate all who comment, and even the few who read and do not comment. You know who you are. :)


Mimi said...

I continue praying for you Mysti..
just take one day at a time and with the Lord's help you will be able to has been 3 months, then 4 months, and so on and so on....
He can make you strong enough to get through the pain with the aid of alcohol...
F.R.O.G. (fully rely on God)

Tracy said...

F.R.O.G wow i love that! That is what i am now doing. Fully relying on God. :) Thank you for the prayers Mimi. I appreciate them.

Raine said...

That is a serious accomplishment Mysti. You should be proud

Tracy said...

Thank you Raine. I am. :) Hugs and blessings.